Inspired iv

YGen4J =)

First of all, I want to thank God for bringing me to the YGen4J family. It was nice meeting you guys!

I want to share a lot of things to you guys. First, I was afraid to tell the truth to my friends, family and loved ones. Why? Maybe because, they’ll get mad at me, they might leave me but I realized that if you tell the truth, hindi na lalaki yung problema.

Whenever my parents get mad at me, I don’t talk to them and I’m always down. I feel like I’m always wrong.

My friends say that you have to learn from your mistakes, dapat hindi mo gawin yan, mali yan, dapat ganito ang gawin mo. One day, I brought my cellphone to school but before I go, my mother told me not to bring it, and I didn’t listen to her, matigas pa ulo ko and I was on the second year of high school. When I got home, my cellphone was gone and nagsisisi ako because I didn’t listen to my mother. Now I know that, “Mothers know best.” Time goes on, I kept listening to my mother, lagi akong humihingi ng kapalit like, “Mom, Can I use the computer? I did my job.” Then my mother says, “No!” and then nagtampo ako, I had nothing to do but frown at magmukmok ang it’s not good to do that. Mother knows best right? So, there all I do is listen to her. Next story?

Well, I was in the third year of high school already, May 4-7 I attended a seminar because I want to join a group called “Echo staff” it’s like journalism but it’s very tiring. Tapos na meet ko si Ate Krizette, =) she’s telling me na gusto daw akong ligawan ng pinsan niya. Online on friendster, chat, yahoo. After two months, naging kami. But we broke up 2 years and 4 months later, why? Because he wanted to have sex with me. That’s why I broke up with him. After the break up, he used my account on facebook then spread some issues and stuff about me. Why he did such a thing is because he didn’t want to lose me. But why did he do it? I don’t understand. Because of what he did, I can’t forgive him. Even my parents won’t forgive him. He’s so bad!

Time goes on, months, days, it was May 13 2011, I realized, “I should forgive him.” Be friends or not? I don’t know !? Well I’d better talk to my parents about this. “End”

Next story? Haha!

Every morning I wake up 8:30 am. Why? Because I’m preparing food for my grand father. It’s hard because I’m serving him, whenever I do something wrong pinapagalitan pa ako ang my mother says, “OK lang yan, pagpasensyahan mo na lang.” Then I said yes. I didn’t even eat breakfast yet or anything yet. I’m so hungry. Even when we were eating, he always say, “Bilisan niyo diyan. Naiinitan na ako!” Nag-stroke kasi yung grandfather ko. And my father always tell me, “Isip bata na yan, feeling niya, bata pa siya.” For me, it’s like a task, I feel like my father doesn’t care for us anymore. He feels pity for himself that’s why I’m taking care of him.

So thank you YGen4J, because of the Lord and because of you guy, my life is changing, thank you for teaching us the lessons, I will be more better and share what I have learned from you guys. Thank you, Take Care and God Bless!

—> Alex

Inspired iii

During the past few days after the camp there were unexpected things that happened. Things that are not good. During the camp, I really felt that I’m turning myself away from God. All I did was to give negative feedbacks about what was happening, I didn’t think about Him all those time. I focused on the flaws and with what I want. I was too selfish thinking about myself. All the time, I really didn’t think about Him. He only appears in my mind when I need something.

After the camp, I noticed that I was not in my right state. My mind was overshadowed. During the camp, all I think about was my boyfriend. I text him all the time, call him and etc. He was my center. I made him my “God”. Which I realize now is very wrong. After the camp, I got worse. I wanted all his attention to be mine. I always get angry with small things. My temper rises easily. But then I remembered the good things that happened to the camp. All the inspiring things and words from God. I saw little light in my mind. I saw hope, I realized that I can still make a difference. It is never too late for God. He is always there guiding us. But as for me, I didn’t see that. So the demons had an opportunity to invade my mind. After I had an inspirational talk with my cousin, the light grew bigger. It became brighter. I saw God stretching His arms towards me. Inviting me to walk to His path. A path which all people must take. I praise God for everything. He gave me this much confidence. Maybe I’m not yet fully recovered but I’m nearing in that phase. I feel a bit of light in my heart already. I know that He will never abandon us. All we need to do is trust our life in Him. He’ll never leave us. Even at the most hard situations in our life, He is there. He just never fails. He never failed. I just praise the Lord!

I thought the people in the camp already hated me. But I learn that they never judge. They have been so good to me all the time. They’ve been praying for me all this time! They even told me that I am a blessing to them. They are great people of God. I never knew that there were such persons. This experience made me realize a lot of things. It gave me gifts too. I gained more strength and more patience too. I am not yet fully recovered from the past but little by little I’m starting to be. Like what they’ve said in the camp, “Forget the past and move forward.” And at Jinny’s book, “Accept the past, strive here on the present and shapen our future.”

It is a good way to live a good life with Jesus. What I need to work with is my trust for the people around me, especially my “partner”. I had a huge trauma because every time that we are not together, I think about the bad memories and it IS not healthy. I get paranoid that he’s gonna leave me in the snap of a finger. I overthink and I didn’t trust the Lord. Again I was only thinking about myself. My selfishness grew bigger. But now it stopped, I have ended it. It was very healthy for me and God is happy for that.

Every time that I am having my bad thoughts towards other people. The demons are rejoicing, I never want that to happen again. I want them to VANISH! These creatures are the reason of my misery. But now that I am leaving with God’s words, I feel the comfort that He gives to me and to all of us. I just really want to build my trust with my “partner” and I know that the Lord our God will help me.

Little by little I’m already starting. I’ve shared things with my beloved cousins. I felt really great because the things that I’ve been holding inside me left me and I hope, that, it will never return. Well, almost, I guess. I just felt the lightness inside. Let us praise the Lord our God! Thank Him for everything. He’s the greatest and I love Him with all my heart.

With love,

Alyssa. :) ♥

Inspired ii

Hey brothers and sisters!

Just wondering about YGen4J…How it inspired and changed me. My mom used to tell me, “Ang dami mo namang reklamo!”, but after the camp, I was surprised when she told me, “Aba Himala, Di ka ata nagrereklamo!”
I didn’t even realize that I was already changing, even though it was only a few days after the camp.

It feels great to know God’s words. Singing songs of praise with all my heart and raising my hands made me feel that the Lord is always there for me. Honestly speaking, seeing people raise their hands when they pray was very awkward for me before but because of God and all of you guys, I felt God’s grace come within me.

It was my first time to raise my hand during prayers in the camp.

I wanna thank God for giving me the opportunity to have experiences with you brothers. I know that God has given me the sign. =)I also want to thank YGen4J because I saw love, faith and hope in you brothers!
So just keep the fire burning!! Let us praise God always! God Bless you brothers and sisters! =P
Jesus the Living Gospel Church and YGen4J rocks!! \m/

~Jenni

Inspired i

I used to be- what do you call it? A brat perhaps. Pertaining to me with my dad, yes.
But everyday, I've always dedicated myself to do all things that are good and put others first than myself. The only thing I didn't do is spare time to the Lord. During the past seven years, I never went to our church. Even though the mass is just an hour and comes once every week. A single hour to spend time with the Lord in His "house", never did I visit Him. And now, I am filled, loaded actually, with regrets.

Yes, I know that everyone has their own "regrets".

The Lord must have known that I was aching for change. Change for the better. No matter how much I tell myself that I will change, I never did. But this camp, during the four days I stayed here, made me realize how special life can truly be and that it's never too late.

My cousin is a great pastor at this certain camp and I can tell that he is loved by the people there and especially, by God. I am grateful to him because he gave me an awesome opportunity to be more closer to God. But not only him, to the youth leaders and other pastors, they were the best. I thought to myself back then, people nowadays are like me- lazy, bratty, busybody, no time for God but then I encountered people like them. Great people whom you can be yourself when you talk to them. People who can make you feel like you've known them for years even though you just met. People who you know, will never judge you. People who are devoted to God and to their family and friends.

My dad said I changed. Is it true? Did I really change? I asked myself. Maybe I did change for the better and as I put a huge smile to my face, I prayed to the Lord; "Thank you for everything."

I know that He got it. Those four words have its own depth. I've put all my thoughts and feelings to those special words. And you know what, the Lord already knows what's inside your heart even before you tell Him so it's okay if you mess up words, find it difficult to express what you feel, just let loose and tell Him. He would gladly listen and He'll definitely understand you, that's for sure.

This is it. Wooh! Here I go, changing for the better. You know what they say, "We've got all the time in the world." No matter how slow ish this new change of mine will be, one thing's for sure. I'm gonna make this permanent and apply it to my daily life. I won't change out of selfish reasons. I'm gonna change for Him, for my family, for my friends and yeah. So keep the faith! And May His awesomeness shine upon us! God Bless you all. :)

In all sincerity,

~Jinny